It was on a wedding day

When my heart began to stray

Never thought I'd make such a big mistake

Throw my life away

I've gone days without food

I've went weeks without sleep

Keeping this inI've got cuts I can't close

I've got wounds that won't heal

It's all your fault

I've been shattered and wreck

My hand's covered in bloodScars on my skinI forgot how to feel

Now I'm weak with this (?)

My skin is paper thin

We've been through this

Feeling it, keeping it, holdin' it and

We've gone through this

Over and over again

I go years without tears

In a life with no fear

A life without you

Now I'm breaking my back as

I cover my tracks

My skin is paper thin once again

We've been through thisFeeling it, keeping it, holdin' it and

We've gone through this

Over and over again

I've gone days without food

I've went weeks without sleep

Keeping this in

I've got cuts I can't closeI've got wounds that won't heal

It's all your fault

My american dreamwasn't ever to rise to your (?)

We've been through this

Feeling it, keeping it, holdin' it and

We've gone through this

Over and over again

We've been through thisFeeling it, keeping it, holdin' it and

We go through this

Over and over again

This was not a test

This was all for real

This was not a test

This was all for real

This was not a test

This was all for real

This was not a test

This was all for real

It's so nice sitting very still,

in a room where no one else can feel

the pain that breaks my heart each day, I'm not ok.

Sunlight shining through my window,

lets me know that I'm still alive

But why did I ever let you inside my heart? I'm such a fool.

Paint my face in shades of blood and grey

and take the seat right next to me

But I should have known that you were a killer.

But now I'm dead.

A gaping hole, shot through my heart

A lost connection from your poison dart

Shot from your tongue to end my life.

But if you're blowing at the fire to light your strife.

You'll never know, oh yeah. You'll never know, oh no.

The hardest thing about dying is, knowing you'll never see the light of day.

A gaping hole... (shot through my heart)

A lost connection from your poison dart.

My head now spins and my ears bleed gold.

I try so fucking hard, but I can't fit your mold.

The hardest thing about dying is, knowing you'll never see the light of day. [x2]

You ripped my heart out, you tore my eyes out, now you're gonna payI'll stab you one time.

I'll eat your heart out, so you feel my pain.

Don't you know that I always see you in all of my dreams?

I wanna kill you. I wanna kill you. Now I'm insane. [x3]

Mercan Canada Employment Phils. Inc

Company Description
Mercan Canada Employment Phils., Inc. is an immigration and placement company, with head office located in Montreal. Our affiliate, Mercan Capital Ltd., is one of the largest and most successful immigration-consulting firms in the world, established in 1989. Our company was set up in 2005 to focus on employer-worker recruitment and since our inception, we have successfully helped numerous companies engage skilled and competent professionals to become part of their workforce. We are currently processing more than 400 nurses and have a partnership with one of the biggest health institutions in Canada and US. Our office in Manila is sourcing for NURSES FOR CANADA.

Initial Requirement:
1. Comprehensive Resume w/ 2x2 Picture
2. PRC License, Board Rating
3. Diploma, TOR, RLE
4. Certificate Of Employment, Reference Letter
5. Training Certificates
6. English Exam Result
7. Photocopy of Passport

Qualification:
1. Registered Nurse
2. With English Exam ( IELTS,TOEFL ibt, etc.)
3. Minimum of 2 yrs. Hospital experience preferably tertiary hospital.
4. Male/Female 23-50 yrs. Old Preferably exposure in ICU/CCU, OR, SICU, Pedia/NICU, Psychiatric Unit,Geriatric, Obstetric, ER, Clinical Instructor/Nurse Educator.

Successful CARNA assessment is an ADVANTAGE Benefit Package:
1. $25 CAD/hr as a Graduate Nurse
2. $29 CAD/hr upon obtaining RN license
3. Relocation Assistance Up to $5,000 CAD
4. Overtime rate 2x regular hourly rate
5. Evening, Night and Weekend Premium
6. Employer covered permanent Residence Fee and Processing Fee Up to $1,525.00

Interested applicants may send their resume to:
anna@mercanrecruit.com, nurse@mercanrecruit.com
for more information, check out http://jobsfornurses.blogspot.com/2007/10/nurses-for-canada.html

I try to be the one that everybody loves
Where has that gotten me?
I tear myself to shreds to prove that I'm someone
That I could never be
Now these unsightly marks define me

So help me
Please someone come quick
I think I am losing it
Forgive me I inherited this
From a stranger I'll never miss
I'm sick

My father taught me firsthand how to be set free
Give up and run away
I wish I could drain out his half of blood in me
But I'd still have his face
I curse reflections everyday

So help me
Please someone come quick
I think I am losing it
Forgive me I inherited this
From a stranger I'll never miss

Here is my own family tradition
Following footsteps into addiction
So is there a way
That I can find peace while still numbing my pain?
Is this my fate?
Cause your only son still can't seem to find his way

So help me
Please someone come quick
I think I am losing it
Forgive me I inherited this
From a stranger I'll never miss

So father where the hell are you now?
I think that you would be proud
Your son, who so unluckily
Fell right next to the tree

I hope you're proud of me
I hope you're proud...

Lying all alone, wishing you would call.
Writing all my thoughts has broken all my bones.
You gave it all up, you threw it all away.
There's nothing I can do.

What do I think you've done?
You know it's even worse than what's in my head.
You don't believe me when I tell you:
I don't want to be a fraud and pretend that everything's fine.
I won't be here when you get home.
I'm not gonna sit here and die!

I'll follow through again this time.
I'll swallow swords, spit out my pride.
I'll be just fine.

You read me like a book
you know I'm running out of legs to stand on.
I won't believe you when you tell me:
These old habits die so hard,
there's no intervention in sight.
There's no point in calling you,
We're just gonna stand here and fight.

I'll follow through again this time.
I'll swallow swords, spit out my pride.
I'll be just fine, fine.
You fill my head with endless lies.
You're killing me, I'm killing time.
I'll be just fine.

So maybe one day the pain will go away
and I will see your face,
I won't even care.
I'm changing all the locks 'cause I can't change you.

I'll follow through again this time.
I'll swallow swords, spit out my pride.
I'll be just fine, fine.
You fill my head with endless lies.
You're killing me, I'm killing time.
I'll be just fine.

I'll follow through again this time.
I'll swallow swords, spit out my pride.
I'll be just fine, fine.
You fill my head with endless lies.
You're killing me, I'm killing time.
I'll be just fine.